Let me say this right now; parts of these lyrics are real life events while some are not. Also please note that even though parts of these lyrics hints at suicide, I have never attempted suicide and neither should you. Suicide must NEVER be considered an option. No matter how bad things may seem or get, there’s always a way to make things better. Never be afraid to ask for help.

I made this beat and wrote most of the lyrics (verse 1, 2, 3) way back in 2006. It wasn’t until about 5 years ago that I was able to put verse 4 together. I also made a few changes to the other 3 verses.

Verse 1 –
Life was so fucked, oh man I couldn’t take it
The shit I’ve been through I don’t know why I face it
Maybe to make me stronger or so I know what it’s like
I see no enemies yet every day is a fucking fight
You are your friend’s target and why they say they got your back
You can’t see the moment they bout to stab you in the back
Can’t trust no one, not even when they are blood
Even the ones that say the love you will eat your ass up

It ain’t like that shit no more
It ain’t like that shit no more
It ain’t like that shit no more
It ain’t like that shit no more

Verse 2 –
Bitches don’t fuck with me and I don’t know what I did
And the damn heavens won’t tell me what it is
Desolated like I’m scorned for life
In the brightest of day not a shadow in sight
Roaming through the jungle, there’s nutt’n but darkness
Searching for strength but can’t find a fortress
Bump in Grandma’s shed and stayed there for a while
It seems like home but something didn’t feel right

It ain’t like that shit no more
It ain’t like that shit no more
It ain’t like that shit no more
It ain’t like that shit no more

Verse 3 –
Now Grandma had it hard man, alone feeding 8 kids
Watching her get burned and wishing I could change it
I’m not the oldest one but I had the bigger dream
I put the work in but it’s hard to take a sleep
At nights I’m by her door and listen while she’s praying
Telling how much she love us and the pain it is causing
My face to the floor just watching my tears falling
Feeling so sick, dying to hear mom calling
The shot down visions left me cripple inside
And wondering if all I can do is survive
While hoping for the day something would change
But being fucked up for days has ravaged my faith

It ain’t like that shit no more
It ain’t like that shit no more
It ain’t like that shit no more
It ain’t like that shit no more
(4bar break)

Verse 4 –
Then depression sets in and I lose all hope
Had the liquor, some pills and a piece rope
Thoughts of overdosing and slitting my wrist
While sitting in a tree so I can hang from that shit
But like all them other shit, it never came to life
Though I’m dead inside still I couldn’t end my life
So I wake up every morning scoffing at the world
Can’t appreciate the day when it feels like a curse
And no matter where I stand it didn’t feel like my place
Couldn’t even find a brush to paint a smile on my face
Scarred beneath the skin so no one can see
These cuts and bruises from life’s defeats

It ain’t like that shit no more (8x)

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